Mixed emotions in eco-poetry

Not an essay, though there is probably a whole dissertation hidden in this title. Just a Sunday selection of a few poems I’ve read recently that have said something recognisable to me about how the act of witnessing climate collapse elicits a whole load of emotions, a grab-bag of throat-lumps, a pick and mix of angers, a bran tub of what the f**k do I do with this now?

Not only do the emotions come in a tangle, but they are inevitably either linked to, or fighting for mental space, against all the other absolute horrors that simultaneously require our attention, activism, energy, anger, empathy, time and money. Scroll on.

This is Not a Matter For by Tjawangwa Dema (pt 1)
This is Not a Matter For by Tjawangwa Dema (pt 2)

This poem is from the beautiful An/Other Pastoral by Tjawajgwa Dema, illustrated by Tebogo Cranwell, and published by No Bindings Press (sadly sold out). Parenting during pandemic, anyone would be forgiven for having no mental space to contemplate climate crisis; but the enormity of some environmental disasters force their way into our consciousness, shedding light on the interconnectedness of all our systems of exploitation and oppression.

Morality Play by Caroline Bird (pt 1)
Morality Play by Caroline Bird (pt 2)

An astounding number of people would rather simply not believe the evidence of science and their own damn eyes when it comes to climate stuff. It’s less terrifying that way, perhaps? You can shrug off the need for any personal responsibility and be a little pixie of conspiracy quirks; you can look away from the gut-wrenching realisation that literally no-one in power is going to make the right decisions to save us; you can keep prioritising the pleasures of your consumption. This poem is so full of the human – narcissism, denial, failures of empathy, fear of death, the uncertainty around meaning, purpose, what’s it all for… does it act on you as a wake up call? You can find it, and the following poem, in Out of Time: Poetry from the Climate Emergency ed. Kate Simpson by Valley Press.

Wild Camp by Jo Clement

In Dema’s poem, a huge eco-disaster intrudes into an already pandemic-fraught life. In this one, biodiversity loss and our current steady mass extinction pops up during what should be an idyllic time in Nature. It’s not even the first issue to raise it’s head, but it effectively shuts down the conversation – the last thing in the poem. This is every conversation I have these days – a litany of appalling things interspersed with attempts to look around and appreciate my surroundings or the luck of my life, all of it eventually cut dead by listen, the birds are dying off – until I rally myself for the next attempt at normality and joy. I try not to say the dead birds bit out loud to most people, just in case I stopped getting invited to parties! And I do feel lots of joy! But also, I do count birds…

It’s poems like this that remind me there really isn’t (or shouldn’t be?) any such thing as nature poetry anymore. Nature has been used as a salve and an escape and an inspiration and a metaphor for human yearnings and philosophies for so many centuries. We’d like to keep doing that, it’s beautiful. But it’s tainted. Is it even possible anymore to look, but not to see what we’ve done, what we do?

Inheritance by Holly Hopkins
Inheritance by Holly Hopkins (pt 2)

I’m finishing with this banger from Holly Hopkins’ collection The English Summer from Penned in the Margins, which I heartily recommend. Here’s parenting again, with the added ingredient of feminism. Every word of it true! I love it, and I absolutely acknowledge that this is one of the HUGE drawbacks to climate activism that focuses on individual responsibility – the work of clearing up messes of any kind is likely to fall much more heavily on women. At least, it always has done, no reason to think anything will change any time soon when you look at the rising popularity of brutal misogyny absolutely bloody everywhere. Its a problem. I ain’t got no solution – but I’m offering you this little selection of poems I suppose as a provocation to see how it’s all linked. The sexism, the fascism, the consumerism, the capitalism, the genocide, the racism, the ecocide.

All the same death grip.

There you go, nice little blog for a Sunday!

Plastic passions are hard to handle

Christmas blinking manically all around me, polyester charity-shop Shein-retrieval billowing brightly on my back, pen pausing in my hand mid-migration to its landfill destiny, clingy flutter of the Lotus wrapper tipping my thumb, toothed hoop holding my hair back like a best mate in the late-night ladies’ loos, keyboard carrying my mind to yours, boot soles carrying my body past window-gluts of tat in all shades of desperation and desire, blister-packs of ease for my symptoms, fugitive molecules circulate in my plumbing and the beading of my blood vessels, micro, macro, plastic, factual.

Plastic is oil. The international treaty on reducing plastic waste has failed to reach an agreement, with oil-producing nations pushing against the most stringent restrictions. It figures.

Figures. 400 million tonnes of plastic waste per year, 109 million in rivers, 30 million in the oceans. Predicted to treble by 2060 if we don’t stop now.

Trying to find a decent poem out there (finding lots of bad ones). Somewhere there’s Cindy Botha’s prize-winning poem about a hermit crab in a doll’s head. Somewhere in me there must be things to say, but what is there unsaid?

Teesside has the world’s first recycling facility capable of turning formerly end-of-life and unrecyclable plastics into liquid hydrocarbons. They employ 50 people. Teesside is a major manufacturing hub for Sabic, a global firm who produce over a third of all the polyethylene needed to make single-use plastics. They employ 800+ and bring £400m into our local economy. Some staff occasionally do voluntary beach cleans. The UK wanted the plastics treaty to work at it’s strongest; Saudi Arabia not so much. Sabic is a Saudi-owned company.

I can’t make the pieces fit. I’m a shucked crab, calling a dolls-head ‘home’. A pair of ragged claws.

The World Counts plastic ocean dump figures – real-time counter.

Ocean plastic tracker – where might your plastic end up if it reaches the sea?

Stories of Stuff – watch and share feature length and animated shorts showing the lifecycles of plastics, recycling, microfibres, microbeads

Plastic Count – see how much the UK wastes and take part in this annual citizen-science project monitoring plastic use and waste in UK households and schools

PlanetCare – install a microfibre filter on your washing machine outlet and reduce micro-plastic pollution in the water cycle

Bird-shaped holes in the world

Why declare climate emergency? Because of the absences I see everywhere.

The five sparrows on the wall when two years ago there were twenty .

The way the starling murmurations reduced from an abstract flash mob to sad little squiggles the year after their roosting site was knocked down for housing development.

How long it’s been since I cringed at an evening influx of daddy-long-legs, creepy-crawly bane of all childhood camping trips – I saw one on a bus stop this summer and stopped to take a photo, it had been so long. Bad luck for the bats, dunlins, plovers, choughs and crows and others that feed on them.

I’ve lived long enough and been watching, idly but enough to see baselines shift and biodiversity plummet, and I can’t even really look closely at the true numbers without wanting to scream. I’m taking a different road to my mum’s these days so I don’t have to look at the wrenched-up hedges and ravaged fields of another fucking housing estate going up. Hedgehog corridors gone, berries for the migrating flocks gone, everything gone, for brick-loads of mortgage debt and two-car driveways in an unwalkable development without amenities or green infrastructure, built with extractive materials we have no carbon budget for – my mind rants on and on!

Does anyone else get this clutching panic just looking at how many of us there are? And thinking about how much consumption and destruction we seem to find normal?

Does anyone else look out over the incredible skies of Teesside and imagine walking the marshes as a pre-historic hunter-gatherer, seeing not this era’s scratty gap-toothed off-cut skeins of geese but endless sashiko stitches of bird-flocks?

Lynn Pederson does something like this in her prose-poem ‘A Brief History of the Passenger Pigeon’, and I’m so glad to find it. I hope you enjoy it too.

A Brief History of the Passenger Pigeon

Not to be confused with messenger pigeons, birds sent behind enemy lines in war, but think passengers as in birds carrying suitcases, sharing a berth on a train, or traveling in bamboo cages on a ship, always migrating on a one-way to extinction. How would extinction look on a graph? A steady climb, or a plateau, then a precipitous cliff at the dawn of humans?

Nesting grounds eight hundred square miles in area. Skies swollen with darkening multitudes. Days and days of unbroken flocks passing over. Ectopistes migratorius.

And the last of the species, Martha, named for Martha Washington, dies in a cage in 1914 at the Cincinnati Zoo.

Forget clemency. We are the worst kind of predator, not even deliberate in our destruction. Our killing happens à la carte, on the side (side of Dodo?).

And because the nineteenth century did not enlist a battlefield artist for extinctions, there are no official witnesses to the slaughter, just participants. If you could somehow travel back to this scene, through the would-be canvas, you would run flailing your arms toward the hardwood forests and the men with sticks and guns and boiling sulphur pots to bring birds out of the trees, as if you could deliver 50,000 individual warnings, or throw yourself prostrate on the ground, as if your one body could hold sway.

So maybe this is the point of poets and poetry in the context of declaring climate emergency. To imagine forward and backward through out own lifetimes and beyond, to paint a picture of biodiversity as it was and should be, to keep alerting new generations to the baseline shift so they don’t unthinkingly accept the new normal of silent dead-scape.

I’m going to share one of my own poems as well, this one published in Passerine (where all the poems are called Dear Sophie)

9 October

Dear Sophie,

The clouds today are the blue-black of eye bags.

The trees blaze against them, rebels to a sapling.
Pointillist berries transport the green shadows with scarlet.
The haws are set, thumb-prick carmine, and the sloes are blue as ravens.

Along the old embankment, crowds of rosebay have withered
to a froth of seed-split pods swaying on rattles of madder leaves.

The grey wind.

Long-vacated, you melt into the arms of the earth, sockets deep as inkwells.
In twelve years, the scientists say, the damage will be irreversible.
Your son’s lifespan, again.

A break in the clouds reveals the trees
are full of fluttering shadow-puppets, telling folktales
about the beginnings and ends of worlds.

What about the whatabout?

Last week I put out a blog that contained twenty small and small-ish changes individuals and households could make to get a little more planet-friendly – things that me and my friends actually do; that lots of people do. It prompted some really interesting conversations on my socials, and highlighted a very real and common reaction that many people have …”what good will individual action do, when governments and corporations do nothing? What about systems change?

I mean, yes. Absolutely. Absolutely systems change, absolutely governmental duty, COP pledges, absolutely environmental laws, absolutely corporate accountability, yes yes yes.

But also, the need for the big doesn’t invalidate the benefit of the small. “What-aboutery” is the name for the kind of reaction that sounds like an intellectual, rational, realistic, politically sophisticated response to any suggestion that we make individual changes. But it’s also a deflection, an emotional opting out, a shifting of blame that cuts the difficult journey of change dead in its tracks. Going straight to “what about” can snuff out the flame of hope, which we desperately need if we’re to remain committed, resilient, united and innovative in the storms to come.

Society is made up of individuals moving together in culture shifts…

I vote, but I am not a government.

I purchase, but I am not a corporation.

Where does my sphere of influence actually extend?

How am I willing to act within it?

In documenting those actions, who might I take with me?

In asking others for their experiences and ideas, what strength might I gain?

So, here ‘s a couple more ideas and stories of individual actions with wider implications. First up is this article just dropped into my inbox by Triodos Bank, with a bunch of festive sustainability tips for you. You’ve probably seen this kind of thing before? I’ve been doing charity shop and home-made gifts for years, mostly because I work in the arts and have sod-all money, but hey I’ll take the eco-credit for it too!

But seriously, what do you do with your money, those of you who have any? Triodos supports a Friends of the Earth initiative called Money Movers, which shows you how to use your current, savings and pensions accounts to help support climate action. Individual action, collective results. Systems are made up of people, we can play our part with intention.

Secondly I want to share OFFSHORE, a fantastic short film about oil, gas and wind powered energy industries – no really, it’s phenomenal! Beautifully shot, fascinating footage on the rigs, and an absolutely brilliant insight into how some highly-skilled rig workers themselves are making the move to, and the case for, wind turbines. The dangers, challenges, and systemic/economic barriers to change are all laid out in the most gripping and relatable ways, please take a look and see how individuals and this system inter-relate.

Fossil fuels and community cohesion are in the DNA of the north east. I live on the so-called East Durham Coal Coast. I wrote this a while back with a community group at Hawthorn, County Durham, thanks to a commission from No More Nowt.

We come from a land of beauty and blackness -
Wooded denes and fertile fields,
wide rivers, far horizons, and the soft limestone coast
where the east wind draws mists from the sea and rainbows arc;
Black coal threaded below, ugly and precious,
ancient plants pressed into seams of fuel.
We come from a land of villages, of community, of closeness,
people linked together in work and in love.
A land of regeneration, making the best of what we have,
Strong and caring, a kind and canny land

Finally, I’d like to show you this resource created by Bridget McKenzie, founder of Climate Museum UK and co-founder of Culture Declares Emergency. I’m currently doing Bridget’s Earth Talk training, learning more about how to hold difficult climate conversations with folks both inside and outside my echo chamber. I’m very much a beginner, very much prone to doom-loading and freaking out, but I really want to find a way to hold space for all of the complexities of fact, myth, and emotion that we all feel. This infographic helps me to think about where my different actions and choices fall, and where there might be opportunities to make a difference that are both meaningful and sustainable. What do you see in this wheel? Where are you? Would you like to talk about it with friends? Drop in on me at ARC Stockton, 2-4pm every Thursday or email me on teessideclimatecreatives@gmail.com

Join me on a journey to Declaration

Today I began looking in earnest at why and how to join Culture Declares Emergency, something I’ve been considering for most of this year; and I’m looking for other Teesside creatives to join me, because frankly I feel like we all need a bit of solidarity, accountability, and witness for this kind of stuff.

I’m starting by exploring Declarations other individuals have made, and I’m loving this durational intervention by Johannes-Harm Hovinga, who made confetti out of the huge official climate collapse reports that every government is ignoring. It makes me want to do a piece of durational blackout poetry, something I’ve fancied for ages but not known what source document to use. Hmm, ok, log that as Idea #1…

An inspirational individual Declarer local to me is Justine Boussard, who is an Amateur Ancestor – great concept! – coming at Climate Emergency through the lens of museum curation. I love the clarity and verve of her declaration – something I’m definitely going to try to emulate. And of course there’s the brilliant Lady Kitt, whose mentoring I hope to write about later…

Or how about the mysteriously-monikered XYZ Poetics? I love how their Declaration talks about joining the dots, which makes me imagine experimental ways to format my eco-poems as text-art installations dot-linked like murder investigation boards. Hmm, (overly-ambitious) Idea #2…

And I’m very exited by this STONKING Declaration from Threads In The Ground, a self-described “climate hope organisation”. They are one of the artist/groups to receive a Culture House commission – a list that also includes me and my colleague Ellie Clewlow working together on a recycled junk mail/community poem project. (I’ll blog more about that on another day)

The other thing I’ve done today is I’ve eaten delicious soup and had fascinating conversations with ARC staff at their monthly Climate Cafe, a space for sharing both anxieties and good news. We talked about everything from the hidden water costs of AI searches to the absolute swag available in Stockton for charities through a council scheme that re-homes unwanted office equipment and computers – I’m now hungry for a free whiteboard, to UNLEASH STRATEGIC PLANNING upon!

I applied for a small climate-themed commission from ARC Stockton‘s ‘Make New Work’ grant scheme, and although I wasn’t successful, I ‘m profoundly thankful that they liked my ideas enough to find a chunk of change down the back of their metaphorical sofa and offer me support towards opening up a space for Teesside Climate Creatives to connect in an informal way while I try to keep myself on track with my own thinking.

I’m going to hang out at ARC most Thursday afternoons for the rest of the year, working my way through Culture Declares Emergency resources and toolkit blueprint for change. I’m going to reflect on my personal practice, my organisation (Tees Women Poets), and what I can do in terms of environmental policies, processes, manifestos…and I’m offering an open invitation to any creative or cultural practitioner in Teesside to join me whenever they can. Together we can hopefully come to our individual Declarations.

If all goes well, I will write a Declaration that is a long-form poem. I will then write out that poem in liquid papier mache and let it dry into large sheets of paper lace, which will then get exhibited in ARC’s gallery next February. If lots of other artists join me, perhaps there can be a group exhibition of art that makes a Declaration of climate emergency, and which communicates our resolve to be part of meeting that emergency head on with all the creative tools at our disposal.

If you’d like to be involved, you can email me here for all the dates I’ll be here.